Please Pray for me and my Family... I would not do this normally, but its calling for me to reach out to as many as I can to help me with this battle.

I am posting this picture because I really need God's hands within my situation like right NOW! I put a mandate out on my family and my proclamation is that by the end of this week the HELL that I am going through will be OVER!! I am putting a demand out for complete restoration in my and my family's life! I am a child of God and the enemy cannot have what God gave to me!

I have been slacking in my blog and its just because I have been going through A LOT lately. I do not ask much from many people other than for your prayers. Soo all my bloggerland friends please keep me and my family in your prayers. Because it is the WWW Im not comfortable going into details but I would appreciate any prayers for family unity and restoration. I am a firm believer that God hears us all its just right now is a trying time for me and my family. In the end I need God's will to come through because it is getting rough for me to handle at this moment.

I can stand boldly but its taking a toll on me, not really on my faith but my physical being. I have a strong spirit and I will last the battle but I am feeling like giving up within the carnal sense and possibly leaving someone alone totally. I do not want that but I am almost there 100% from being pushed away and building resentment. I have turned to many people who are of some authority but at this point my mind is made up on what I must do next. I still have hope and faith but God will do great things within me so I am not afraid anymore of what I need to do.

Still I ask to just keep me in your prayers and thoughts.
Thank you all for reading and being there for me at this time. I really do appreciate it and give many cyber hugs right now!!! Thanks sooo much.

Updates!

I had a BLAST!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER SO FAR BLAST!!!! For my 30th birthday.. and I must say that I make 30 look darn good! ;)
We went to J.B. Dawson's rest and then took it to Warmdaddy's later that night. I got so many gifts(unexpected). I am the type of person that will not want you to worry about a present and just show up and enjoy your self but I got so many wonderful gifts and I was soo elated! I got jewelry, perfume, money, makeup, a new purse.. omg! and the list goes on! Soooo happy! ;) ;0 ;) ;P

Today I spoke to one of my cousins (by marriage) and it was nice to touch base with her. She is in Jamaica, once lived here in the states but has taken residency in JA now. I was happy to talk to her because we have not spoken since like 2008/09 on the phone, but still keep in contact via FB. We talked about a couple different things and I told her how proud I am of her doing so much with her life. We are going to make plans to see each other.. Ill probably look into spring break of next year. She is in Kingston and although my family is from JA and I visit many times, I have never been in Kingston except for driving through. So I pray that we come together to plan this and have a blast.. I know we will. It will be nice to catch up :) I love positive people and she is one.

Other than that I am still in my Microbiology class (which I am glad that I decided to take it.. and I must say that I am kicking butt on all my work! oh yeah!! I am soooooooooooooooooooooooo thankful that God has made things out to start working for me. I know that He has a plan but I am sooo glad that He chose me! ;)

As for my weight, I have not been able to get under 200lbs! I'm still in and out of 205-209lbs and I am starting to get tired of it.. I started a walking workout yesterday and I hope to continue. I want to get to 190lbs soon but I know that the holidays are coming up and I don't want to set myself up for disaster.. I just want to maintain though.

I GOT ACCEPTED INTO MY NURSING CLINCIALS FOR MY RN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU JESUS!!

All I can say is THANK YOU LORD!!!! HE IS WORTHY! THANK YOU JESUS!!! I am soo happy that I FINALLY got into my RN program! God is soooo good!
:)

oh yeah and I just came back from Florida last night! I had a blast with my cousin. We went to the mall, beaches, and drove around the area. It was so nice to reconnect with her after all these years.
We are planning another trip either me there or her here.. She really wants to come up north for the Winter because she has never seen snow.. So we shall see!

Next my birthday is Saturday and I will be celebrating my 30th (and also my acceptance letter!) then the countdown to our 5th year anniversary and surprise trip....well surprise for the hubby ;)

Florida bound tomorrow!!

Yes!!! I can not wait!!!! :) All smiles over here!! WOOT WOOT!!!!!
PART 1 OF BDAY CELEBRATION!!! HAPPY 30TH TO ME!!!!!!!! :D

4 MORE DAYS UNTIL MY TRIP TO FLORIDA!!

I can not wait! I am going to start packing tomorrow and finish up Thursday night! I know I will have a blast hanging out with my cousin!!!

Today..

Today,Well today is one day closer to Friday! YAY!!! :) A day that I def like because I no longer work Saturdays...
Today I just had to have chicken wings and french fries from one of my local Chinese restaurants. I got ketchup and hot sauce all over them..
Today I also had some HERSHEY bar chocolate candy!! I LOVE CHOCOLATE!!! I had 2 the regular Hershey and the Hershey with Almond.. Each about 220 EACH!!! smh..
Today leaves me with 8 more days until I go to Miami!!
Today leaves me with about 100 days until I take my hubby on our surprise getaway.
Today my mother in law moved in with me and my hubby and will be staying until she can get her own place.
Today, or rather, tonight I am at work and doing my normal 11pm shift.
Today I really want to workout because I ate all that junk today.. :/
Today I weighed myself and the scale said 209lbs! BASTARD SCALE!!!!! I AM DETERMINED TO GET DOWN TO AT LEAST 205LBS BY MIAMI!!!

Im being a major fatty today.. Def need to work out tomorrow.
*sidenote* I am thinking about getting a tumblr.. any thoughts??? :)
Stay Blessed!!!!

Summer is almost over! and Overdue pics! :)

Can you believe that summer is almost gone.. I am excited about it though because my b-day is coming up on the 24th! :) I LOVE the fall season .. partially favored b/c of my b-day but I love the weather also. Time to bring out some layers and more of my darker browns/grays/blacks/ and mustard colors. YAY!!! Time to go shopping too considering I have lost so much weight! lol! I went from a size 14 to a 10! Well the 10's are a little tight but I can still wear them. I am still around the 204-207 weight.. sometimes up to 210 but it is mostly water weight. I am setting my goal to get down to 180 by December of this year. I think that it is doable. I am going to surprise my husband with a trip and this would be perfect!

So I am so excited for my birthday excursions!! The first part of my bday will be Sept 16th. I will be flying into Florida to see one of my cousins which I have not seen in over 20 years!! I will be in the Ft. Lauderdale/ Miami area. I can not wait!!! We are going to have a blast catching up!

After I get back the hubby is planning something for me on my actual bday weekend! I am soo excited!! :) I love my hubby so much! xoxoxoxoxoxo!! So now Im looking for a bday outfit.. hmmmmm.. lol!

I will def. update lata.. for now Ill leave yall with another pic of me recently at our kid's christening outside of my church :)

Sorry so small of pics.. Its from my cell phone.. err!

7 Random Things About Me : Tagged :)

Hi Everyone.. its been a MINUTE!!! I am still here :) I didn't fall off the wagon.. Just been focusing on school since the summer session has come the end this week. I will catch up in another post. It has just been sooo crazy! But for now I would like to share that I was tagged in a post by my fellow blogger land friend ErikaWithaK!!! :)

I am to::: list 7 random things about yourself and answer a couple of questions :)
Here goes!!!!

1. I am a distant relative of Bob Marley. .Really like a second cousin.. and a Third to his children like Steve, Ziggy, Damien, Cedella and so on and so forth... I do not get to see them like that so its not even worth mentioning at times but that is that..

2. I tried out for American Idol some ways back when it was in Manhattan, NY. I didn't make it. I was crazy nervous.. I think I can sing at times :/ I am def. my worst critic.. I still plan to pursue my singing career but I want to do this strategically and really find out what I want to do.

3. OK.. so I'm not a stalker.. but I can be at times.. errr!!! LOL!!! but I would love to be friends with Raven Symone.. I think that she is AWESOME!! I think she is just so positive and really a cool person from what I can get of her.. And I am friends in my head (yes,..stole from Wendy Williams) with Alicia Keys.. and Mariah Carey haha!!! loves them too!

4. I went to an Immature concert when I was in 10th grade(It was my first concert and I was absolutely in LOVE with 'Batman') and I was on the floor about 6 rows back.. if that.. but anyway.. I was screaming so loud and standing on the chair to see them.. lmao!!! I hit my friend (who I practically bribed begged to come with me!) in the face because I was so excited when them came on stage! haha!!! Well I screamed so loud that I know that they threw out backstage passes at ME!!! But the throw was a row too short.. but it was right in front of me and this OLD couple got it!! GRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!! I could of been Mrs. Houston!!! (lol! j/k hubby.. I lovvvvvvves me some you!! ;))

5. When I was younger I had a habit of squeaking like the kangaroo on Zoobali Zoo.. (please.. don't ask..smh...)

6. I am getting highly frustrated with the time it is taking me to get my nursing degree.. but It is okay.. God helped me to put some things into perspective.. and I am NOT going to stress! :) woooooo saaahhhh!!

7. Well this is the last one.. hmmmmmmmmmmmm... It was not as hard to come up with them so far.. Well....One day I am going to write a book.. not sure what it will be about but I am hoping that it will be a best seller.. We shall see :)

Okay so If you guys are not tired of reading about me yet here are some Q's and A's :)

*Favorite Color: Pink.. any shade of it <3 *Favorite Song: A lot between Gospel and R&B *Favorite Dessert: Cheesecake any flavoorrrr!!! mmm! *Biggest Pet Peeve: Ignorance *When You Are Upset, You: Tell ya how I feel ;) *Your Favorite Pet: Pomeranian.. his name is boo boos! lol!! *Black or White: Black *Biggest Fear: Never used to be but I think Its heights. *Everyday Attitude: Relaxed until I get stressed then its a wrap! *What is Perfection: Uniqueness *Guilty Pleasure: CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now here are the names I would like to tag! :) Erin -My Personal Weight Loss Journey

Ro- Ro Gets Fit!

JTBrown- Mississippi Mulatto

Breanne- Lady Lab Band

My Dream Last Night

Last night I had a dream that I was working as a nurse.. It was scary because I could tell that it was one of my first days and I was not familiar with the hospital. I was on a floor that had many different types of isolation rooms. It was crazy. It was busy but I had a feeling of joy in my heart working as a nurse. It was not in PICU or NICU (which is where I am wanting to work) but it looked like maybe a MICU.. It was cool!
I just wish and pray that it was real.. Some of you may know by reading my blogs or knowing me but I am having difficultly finding a job as a LPN, I am a little disappointed at this point that I still have not found a job .. I know that what God has for me is for me but I am a little down with not finding anything as yet.. I am going to take my cousin's advice and look into temp agencies that will possibly do a temp to hire because I would LOVE to be known as a nurse! <3!!! I pray that this will come through. I am currently in school to get my RN but I really need to get the experience. I do have a seasonal position coming up in the Fall that is only from Sept-Dec. I pray that I can get into a nursing home or hospital so that I can start to work as a LPN soon.. The only thing that I am afraid of is not being able to work the days that I want off! :) lmbo!! I know! Very trivial but I was looking forward to that.. but I will sacrafice that If I am going to be in my ADN clinical seat starting in January! I will know that I am almost there.. If I dont get it then Im going to go straight online to finish my RN.. I can not take the stress anymore! :/ God please come through with my prayers please! But I thank you for ALLL you have done and provided!! Love, your daughter.. <3

Just can't get out of the 200's!!! lol!

My body seems to like being in the 200's for some reason.. gotta get it out of its comfort zone!! I am now at 201.4.. I am happy to still be loosing but I can not wait to be under 200lbs finally! lol! OHH YEAH.. and I am DONE with HCG! lol! This round I got really lazy! It helped me get to 201lbs though.. but I have decided to do the rest on my own.

I tried Slim Quick.. my sister is taking them and told me to try but It had me sooo anxious and twitchy that I think I have to leave it alone for now.. lol!! It is just not for me.. I can loose 20lbs on my own now.. just get my workout and sweating own! ;)

AND I WILL be posting pics soon! I told ya I am a lolly gager! lol!(spelling) aha!! I am just so busy with my nursing transition class its just crazy right no! lol! but it will work out! I need to get the posting soon with the pics! ;)

New Low today :)

I am down to 202.6 as of this morning with me cheating EVERYDAY! LMBO!! It is just so hard.. haha!! I may have gained a couple today but I am happy to have a new low now! YEAH!!! 22lbs more to goal!!!!!! :)
But I will be happy with loosing 12lbs more on this round of HCG.. I think I can handle the last 10 on my own! ;)

So..

So summer is coming and I am actually psyched about it this year because I am less than what I have been in YEARS!!! I had the audacity to wear a bikini!! (GASP!!) Well I covered up but I took a pic with my bikini on and shorts underneath and I was sooo proud of myself.. I am up from 205lbs but I am okay.. I am maintaining 209lbs.. like my body likes this number (shrugs)

This summer we have plans to do things!! My husband and I are the type to go out and hang but not recently so we have decided to do it up!! We are hitting like every local beach this summer (mostley in NEw Jersey) We just went to Atlantic City and spent time at the beach and boardwalk.. we had a BLAST! We are going back again for hubby's bday in August.. and staying the night.. Looking into Ceasers hotel probobly..Then we are going to to to Wildwood Beach in Wildwood, NJ.. the kiddies will love it there! xoxoxoxo!!! We will also be going to Ocean City and going to Miami for my bday to finish up in September.. (thats fall but it ends our summer planning)

Okay back to weight loss.....
I am okay to maintain.. its not like you can tell the difference in my appearance from 205-209 so I am okay.. just as long as it doesn't go above this.. which it will NOT! lol! that is because I will be doing my second round of HCG! YEAH!!! I can not wait!!!

I was going to start with Day 1 and 2 being on June 4th and 5th but have decided that I will start the following week because I will be going to the beach on June 11th and didn't want to set myself up to fail. And with me maintaining my 209lbs I will feel good going into it. I WILL be under 200lbs come this July! lol!!! I think that this is totally do able.. With my exercise and eating I am able to maintain and loose a couple but I know that I am at another plateau.. so the HCG will yet again come and help me! ;)

I am sooo happy that I found this! It is definitely a blessing with me struggling with weight for so long. no it is not a fix all but it helps when you have the right mindset and are ready for a change in life. It is a motivational feeling when you step on the scale every morning and see that you lost a pound or more! YEAH!!!!! :)

OOOOH YEAH~~~ I will be posting pics soon.. please bear with me.. I am such a procrastinator on this.. I have JUST uploaded on FB so some of my friends see me.. but I will post here maybe tomorrow evening.. Because I have a half day and I will be home in the evening to get ready for my baby girls bday party!!! YAY!!! FUN TIMES!! :)

Love you all!!! Be blessed!!!

Have A Wonderful Memorial Day!!!

HAVE A WONDERFUL AND SAFE WEEKEND!
STAY BLESSED! :)

10min. Workout today

Today I did a 10minute fat burning cardio workout by Denise Austin. I have Verizon Fios and it is on demand on there.. The 10 minute workouts are awesome because you really get a nice burn and sweat! :) sweeeet! :) I feel good with that too!
I have been mixing a lot of on demand free workouts with P90X just to give my body a variation and I do not get bored.. I likee alot! :)
I feel wonderful! :)

Flunctuating

The scale went down to 205.4 and i am fluctuating between that and 207.4.. which is okay with me! :)
I have decided to try my official 2nd round of HCG after my daughters birthday.. so maybe start on 6-5th.. I am excited! :) Can not wait!! If I can loose another 20lbs on this I will be soo happy! :)
I tried on a two piece today .. I looked okay.. if I may say so myself.. I have a lot of work to do in my mid section and want to work on the love handles.. but other than that.. I was pretty happy and impressed! :) Sooooo.. maybe I will wear my first two piece this summer since I was possibly a baby! ;)
Such an NSV!! :D I dont think I am bold enough to post those pics yet though! ;/ lol!

The Adorable Blog Award!

Thank you Erin for my nomination! This is my first award ever and I am super stoked about it!!! It is soo pretty! :) Dontcha think! :D

The rules of the award:

* Thank the person who gave you this award, and link back to them in your post.

* Tell us 10 things about yourself.

* Nominate your bloggers.

* Contact these bloggers, and let them know they received this award.


1. I always wanted to join a sorority in College..but could never make a decision on AKA or Delta's.

2. I went to a psychic because I wanted to know if I was ever going to get married and have children. (not something I would do now)

3. Sometimes I wish I could redo college and went straight for Nursing instead of my Criminal Justice degree which I do nothing with.

4. I am in the process of cleaning up my credit so that we can own our first home! :) This is stressful and exciting at the same time.

5. My favorite color is Pink!

6. I am horrible with time management! Ugh!!!

7. I had my belly button pierced twice, took it out the first time for cheer-leading and the second time tried to change my piece and it closed on me. :/ Needless to say I never had it done again.

8. Thinks that I may have a touch of body dysmorphic disorder.

9. Wanted to be a pop or R&B singer when I was younger .. lost weight and practiced my singing but it never happened

10. Tried out for American Idol some years back in Manhattan, NY.

My Nominees Are:

1. Tanya
2. Paula
3. jtbrown
4. Erika
5. Hollie

All of these bloggers bring something unique about their blogs, which I love! I enjoy reading from them whenever they post! :)

I maintained over the weekend!!! YAY!!

Over the weekend I maintained my 207.4 weight loss!! :) I am super excited to get under 200lbs! :) Its soo close! :)
I will be doing P90X tomorrow morning again.. It will only be my second day, I will try to do this every other day.. if not then do another exercise.. I thank God for my motivation and will power.. without Him I don't know if I could of made it! Love you Lord! :)

207.4!!!

Happy and Thankful to still be loosing! :)

I have stopped HCG and have still been dropping pounds by eating right and exercising! Sooo happy that I am maintaining and loosing on my OWN! Yipee!! :) I weighed myself this morning and the scale said 208.9! and I will take it!! YAY!! 9 more lbs until I am uder 200lbs!!!!
This motivates me tremendously!!! :D :D :D :D!!!
I just also started P90X .. just the cardio part.. did one day of it and was sore as heck yesterday.. I switched it up and did a different routine today.. I think tomorrow night I will do another day of P90X.. So excited to push it to 199lbs!!! YAY!!!!!

update.. 211.8

I have moved my goal (ticker) to a more attainable weight for myself and structure.. I will take pics soon so you can see for yourself.. but I am getting a lot of people who are telling me to not loose anymore weight.. I of course will still and keep going until I reach goal.. but I moved it up to a more realistic weight so that I wont look "sickly". I will be comfortable after 200lbs but I am def. trying to get to my ultimate goal of 180lbs.. I will continue to loose but absolutely maintain once I get get here but at least i will feel comfy at 180..
We shall see! :)

212.8! :)

I am all smiles! ;)

215.8

LETS SEE HOW THIS GOES.. HMMMM... TO BE CONTINUED..........................

218.8

I DID GOOD YESTERDAY AND HAPPY WITH MY LOSS BUT TODAY IS ANOTHER STORY.. I HAVE "LAB WEEK" AT MY JOB AND TODAY WAS THE LUNCHEON AND NEEDLESS TO SAY I BOMBED THIS DIET! WITH CHEESECAKE, BURGERS AND SODA.. UGH! I FEEL BAD BUT I'M GOING TO KEEP IT FOCUSED FROM NOW ON.. I HOPE TO AT LEAST GET UNDER 200 WITH THIS ROUND AND THEN I MAY DO A DIET CONTROLLED WEIGHT LOSS REGIMEN.. THE HCG FOOD IS KILLING ME! HA!!!

**SIDENOTE** I CAN NOT WAIT TO TRY THE BEACH-BODY SERIES!! MY GOAL IS TO START THIS ONCE I REACH ONDERLAND!!! :)

220LBS START

STARTED MY VLCD TODAY.. ITS OKAY SO SO SO FAR.. LOL! I MADE SURE THAT I ATE ENOUGH SO THAT I WILL BE SATISFIED DURING MY 2 DAYS .. AS U CAN SEE WITH THE 5LB GAIN! LOL!!
WE SHALL SEE HOW THIS ROLLS

Dont judge me :)

So I took off from the HCG from Wed to Saturday.. I exercised a couple of days but ate A Lot!! LOL So I talked it over with the hubby and decided to try this again. So my loading days are today and yesterday... yesterday didn't go as well.. did not get enough fatty foods/calories but today i am definitely making up for it.. lmbo!! I have gained about 3 lbs.. which I am NOT happy about and I am NOT updating my ticker! LMBO!!! apart of the gain is definitely due to water weight.. ankles are swollen from being in heals ALL DAY on Sunday.. ugh! but only about a 1lb is due to that.. so back on the HCG.. starting my VLCD tomorrow ! :) cannot wait to see progress.. hoping to be as close to 180lbs as I can before I take another break.. then I will see how that goes! ;)

Im taking a break from the HCG! :) I am happy.. will come back to it later..as for now...

I will be mixing cardio and weight lifting. This morning I got up and my scale read 215.2 so a .2 weight loss. I have to decided to move on to Phase 3 now. So now it is the maintenance phase for about 3 weeks.. Sticking to veggies and protein but now I can up my quantity and portions. I can now incorporate oils/butter and dressing etc.. but still hold off on the starch until the 3 weeks are over. I plan to do this and then move on to phase 4. This phase will allow me to start including my starches in a controlled amount to get my body used to it.. but with me.. I have been doing some carbs anyway! lol! SOOO.. I probobly will be introducing myself to carbs more sooner than 3 weeks.. but I will still limit my portions..

I am extremely happy with my weight loss! :-) I plan to loose the next 15-20 on my own and then go back to HCG for the next 20-30lbs and then I think I will be okay.. I think I may change my immediate goal weight to 175lbs! :) lol!

215.4!! :)

DOWN ANOTHER 2LBS!! YAYA!!!!! :) IM HAPPY.. I REALLY THINK THAT I AM GOING TO TAKE A BREAK FROM THE HCG AFTER THIS WEEK.. JUST FOCUSING ON GETTING TO 207 NOW.. THEN I WILL TAKE A BREAK... I THINK IM HITTING A PLATEAU ON THIS.. SO I WANT MY BODY TO TAKE A REST FROM IT FOR A WHILE SO IT WILL WORK WHEN I GO BACK ON.

SO WHAT MY PLAN IS TO WORK OUT/EAT RIGHT TO GET INTO MY "ONDERLAND" :) WHICH IS SOOO CLOSE!! :D

THEN I WILL GO BACK ON HCG TO GET ANOTHER 20-30 LBS OFF .. THEN HOPEFULLY AT OR CLOSE TO GOAL! YIPEE!!!!
(SORRY ABOUT THE CAPS.. AT WORK I TYPE WITH CAPS AND I TYPED HALF OF THIS BEFORE I WAS ABLE TO CHANGE IT.. NOT YELLING) :)

BLESSINGS & PEACE!! :)

217.4 :p... YES> I CHEATED! lol!

I have GOT to stop cheating but the good thing is that I was able to maintain.. my goal for this week is still another 10lbs and I will try my hardest to do this. I have decided that when I get to 197lbs I will break from the program and do my maintenance for the next 3-6 weeks after. I am ready to start eating! lol!!!! but maintain of course. Soooo pray for me! :) I know that I can do it!!! Through Christ all things are possible! :)

*** Update.. after I fully got up.. the scale said 217.0, I need to make sure that I stop weighing myself too early1 ;)***

Going private for a moment..ill be back soon! ;)

I'm going to take a small break from the publicity of my weight loss..ill be back soon though! ;)

Yesterday 219.0.. today 217.4!!

I noticed that I was starting to plateau at 219 that is why I did not post yesterday so yesterday I tweeked my eating... I left out 1 apple and one of my meals but instead earlier that day I had one slice of wheat bread with like two slices of deli meat and like a 1/2 back of those 100 calorie snack pack.. (A Cheat , I know) but I needed it for energy b/c I was doing ALOT! I made sure I drank at least my 64 oz+! lol!!! and I walked for aobut 45min at work but also the morning I wend to the market with both kids and walked two supermarkets by my house. So I consider that a workout too.. So about 2hrs and 45 min of walking all together if I include the grocery shopping. I am slowly going to incorporate cardio into my routine to get my weight loss a boost to make sure that I get to goal of loosing up to 187lbs on this HCG. That will make 50lbs!!! I think I can do it. Then I will take a break for about 6 weeks and possibly start up again. My first goal on HCG is 207lbs though. So If I reach this first and need a break I will be okay with that too.. that would make a good 30lb loss!

Blessings and Peace! :)

220,0! -1.6lbs :) *****Ahem, I mean 219.4!*****

I cheated a teeny tiny bit yesterday. I had a fiber one bar. I am stll happy with my loss. I am aiming to be down to 217 by Sunday! 3 more lbs,I think I can do it! :)

***After about another good hour of sleep... I weighed myself again... See I woke up a little too early and weighed myself without getting my normal amount of sleep time in.. So when I did I saw a lower number on the scale.. 219.4!!!! Im super excited for the extra treat this morning! ;)*****

I would like for my blog to just be read by my fellow friends/followers not outside people.. the resason is I do not want nosey "family" or so called "friends" reading this and knowing all my business... some things are just meant to be kept without them knowing.. I just feel that If I do not tell you then it is none of your business. I do not mind letting all my blooger friends know because we interact with each other in these aspects. But other people can be really funny and not want to tell you their business but all up in yours... gest what I am saying?!? Well if anyone knows how.. please let me know.. I can not figure it out. :(

And if you are or think you are the family/friend I am talking about.. Please do us both a favor and STOP READING!! I dont know all of your business so dont get up in mine.. Just got to figure out this block feature :) ;) Thanks for your cooperation! :P

221.6!! Happy Hump Day!!

So not quite out of the 220's but I will take it!!! May be at tomorrows weigh in! :)
I am soo excited.. Decided that I would like to make my goal no later than my birthday in September.. That would be of 165lbs! Once I hit 200lbs.. (which is like 20lbs away) This goal will not seem so far reached! Only 35lbs from that! YAY!!!! IM super amped to get there! My Short Term goal would be around 180/175lbs which I plan to be if not less by this summer! CANT WAIT!!!! ;) Cant wait until I am maintaining!

ME and Hubby are doing our budget and by the power of God this thing WILL workout! lol! This is a serious matter because we need to manage our spending and get our credit in check. We plan to pay off some creditor this year (well a majority of them) and try to get our credit rating up at least an additional 150 pts each! I think we can do it with no problem since we have a plan. So I am excited about this process. We want to buy a house in the next year to year and a half!

Back on Track Baby!!! 223.6lbs this morning!!!! :)

Things that make me smile.. God .. my family.. and my scale (now) lol!!!! I am soo happy to see my numbers drop.. I am thrilled to be almost out of the 220's!!! (*edit) YAY!!!!! It is getting easier for me to do this.. I don't crave the sugar/carbs at all.. but it doesn't mean that I don't want to eat any! LOL!!!! It smells good but there is no real urge to act on my senses.. Which is a totally good feeling.. Makes me feel like I am in control! All thanks praises glory and honor due to God.. He is helping me through all of this! THANK YOU LORD!!!!

I pray to come out of this diet strong highly motivated and full of Joy and happiness.. I can feel and see the transformation and it feels AWESOME!! :)

I am already pumped to start chaLEAN.. I am excited with the extra weight that I will have off of me, it will help with my workouts.. Right now during HCG my WII fit and walking are my friends. I may try to incorporate some weight lifting for my arms this week.

This past weekend

So I know realize that the weekends will be my challenge.. I did not loose any more weight but I did maintain. We attended a birthday party and I ate good food including cake and ice cream.. I also hit my WII fit and did 30 min of a combo of strength and cardio.
Sunday was a little better. We went to church and we ordered out. I ordered chicken and broccoli with no sauce.. it was good. My focus for this week is to be down another 10lbs by Friday!! :) I know I can do it!!! I'm trying cabbage this week with my chicken and steak!! YUMMMM!!! We shall see!

Peace and Blessings!

10lbs down in less than a week!!! WOW!!!

227.0 WHOOT WHOOT!!!!!! NEED I SAY MORE!!! Thank you Lord for helping me stick with this diet! :)
I know its a fast weight loss but I am promising myself that this weight is gone for good.. RIP to the excess that I am loosing!!! With my maintenance and workinging out phase after this, It will help me maintain and if not loose more until I get to my goal weight! :) THinking about doing beach body or P90X after my first round of HCG.. This should help with loosing too. 2 more lbs until my short term gaol and 20lbs to go until I am at my 30lb loss for my first round of HCG! YEAH!!!!! :)!!!!!

I CHEATED! ;( BUT STILL LOST 1LB :)

229.4 THIS MORNING!!!!!!!!!!!!! OFFICIALLY OUT OF THE 230'S AND ON MY WAY TO MY SHORT TERM GOAL!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was a little bit upset with myself that I cheated, but I was soooo hungry last night!! lol! I was honestly looking for a gain yhis morning but instead a 1lb loss still! I got to keep my motivation up at night! That is what really gets me unfortunately :(! Last night I gave in and had a Fiber One bar and a deli sandwhich with BBQ chips! lol! I was HUNGAAAARRRYYY! So I need to stay on track now.... seriously! I am trying to loose 22 more pounds within the next 2+ weeks and then my maintenance starts! we shall see!
:)

230.4!!!!!

So I am on P2VLCD3 today.. and when I did my weigh in this morning the scale said that I was down to 230.3lbs!!! YAY!!!! I am soo excited!! Now let me tell ya.. I am thankful to God that I did not get that migraine again and I will continue to pray tha it doesnt happpen again but it is not easy!! lol! I hope it only gets better as far as cravings and hunger pains.. I was craving everything my nose could smell yesterday! lol! it was sooo sad! I ALMOST cheated.. I even had a dream that I almost cheated! haha!!!! (with waffles) ;)
But since I am seeing the scale move, this is definately motivation to keep going. My goal with this Round of HCG is to loose about 30lbs.. More if that is possible! But I will be happy at 30lbs. Then I will take my break and maintain or try to loose the couple to get to Onderland then I will possibly try another round to get under the 190's! :) So this is my plan.. we shall see if it will happen this way!

Peace and Blessings to all of you! :)

Hi Everyone!

It has been crazy in my neck of the woods lately.. hence I have not been able to post like I wanted to. I will try to get back to it more often. :)
I have just started to take HCG .. after much research I decided to try this for myself because I was noticing that I was on a plateau at my 237lbs and it was driving me crazy!!!!!!!!!!! I am currently on day 2 on phase 2 on my VLCD.. I lost 3lbs the first day!!!!!!!!! So my weigh in is $234.2!!!! YAY!!!!! I pray that this is helping and beneficial to my weight loss.. The only side effect that I have noticed is the crazy headache (migraine like ones) err!!! It woke me up out of my sleep!!! Good ness!! I hope that my body gets used to it and I stop getting these headaches!

Alot has been going on .. trying to pay off debt and buy a car.. we pray that we are able to get a house in 2012! I know that God will help us get to our goal.. we just have to follow His word! I am soo excited!! YAY!! ;)

Peace and Blessings to you all! Talk to ya soon!! :)

My motivation//Book I have read lately

Hi all! :)
For many people their reason for loosing weight is family, health, children to be happier within themselves. And all of these reasons are wonderful! They are also some of the reasons why I am loosing weight but my primary focus while I am on that treadmill is having my clothes falling off of me.. The feeling of having loose clothes blows my mind and keeps me encouraged to jog those last 5-7 minutes out on my treadmill.
Also with me being back at work I do like the "rush" I get from taking the green tea supplements. I have a desk job and it can get very busy so I like the fact of burning fat when I eat my meals at my desk :) Its like me drinking coffee and feeling that "coffee high" (giggle) :)

I wanted to share a book with all my friends who follow me with my blog. It is called "Heaven is For Real" This book is awesome! Here is what it looks like:


Here is the product description per Amazon:

"A young boy emerges from life-saving surgery with remarkable stories of his visit to heaven.

Heaven Is for Real is the true story of the four-year old son of a small town Nebraska pastor who during emergency surgery slips from consciousness and enters heaven. He survives and begins talking about being able to look down and see the doctor operating and his dad praying in the waiting room. The family didn't know what to believe but soon the evidence was clear.

Colton said he met his miscarried sister, whom no one had told him about, and his great grandfather who died 30 years before Colton was born, then shared impossible-to-know details about each. He describes the horse that only Jesus could ride, about how "reaaally big" God and his chair are, and how the Holy Spirit "shoots down power" from heaven to help us.

Told by the father, but often in Colton's own words, the disarmingly simple message is heaven is a real place, Jesus really loves children, and be ready, there is a coming last battle."

What I found out today....

So since I had not received a letter from my possibly future school for my ADN program so I called today to find out that I was not one of the first picks for this program. I do feel a little disappointed in that but I know that I was planning to apply again in the Spring if I did not get in. Everything happens for a reason and maybe it is just not the right time for me to start the program. As much as I would want it to be, God said that it is just not the time for me yet :(

They say that they will contact me if one of the first set of people decline or fail to complete the packet details that they will start on their back up waiting list, but I will not get my hopes up for this list.

My plan is to possibly either take the summer off and take some classes in Fall to "keep busy". Or suck it up and take some summer classes. I am also thinking about retaking one clinical math class to get a better grade.. and also retaking my entrance exam test (the NLN'S) to get a better score to get more of a higher score on my rubric. I pray that all things are happening for the good.

My mother is talking about moving away come this fall to winter of 2011 and I really wanted to start clinical so that I would be half way there by the time she was moving. Now I have to wait it out and do this on my own. It is scary. I have never been really far from my mom before other than one state away. She is talking about moving to Florida.. I want to be happy for her and I am.. I want her to be as stress free as possible so I will not let her know that I wish she would stay. I do not want her to feel obligated to stay here. I am scared to be alone. Although I am married I am my mothers eldest daughter and I am scared not to have my mommy close enough for those "just in case" moments.

So as I always do ask of whoever reads.. just please keep me in prayer as I will do for you. I know God will lead my steps and keep me within his reach.
I am thankful for being of sound mind and my health is increasing.. I am thankful that I have a healthy family and God provides for us all. So this is by far a big problem or issue but its still good to know that God has my back on all things. He knows my heart and knows what I want. I want to work for children in either a NICU or PICU. God loves the children and I would love to nurse them back to health as He would. So I know that He will bless me I just pray that it works out to praise and glorify Him in the end.

I will just stick with my "plan" and stay encouraged! :)

237.2!!

So I weighed myself first thing in the morning and this is what my scale had me at. I am happy but I feel that I could of done better.. but yes, we are still learning not to beat myself up over this! So I am content in knowing that I will not be bigger than this weight and I am keeping true to my promise and not increasing my number! But only decreasing!!! My small goal of 225 will possibly be here withing the next month and a half. So what I will do is continue to focus on exercising and eating right and not getting on the scale every week. I will probobly do a weigh in, in like 3-4 weeks that way it will please my psych to see the scale drop significantly. My ultimate goal is to be in onederland by my 30th birthday in September and I totally believe that this is attainable if I stay focussed on myself and put God first so that he can allow to give me the strength for me to continue.
Thank you LORD!!!
p.s. I missed my 3rd nutrition class today. It really means that I will have another month tacked on to my 6 month process..So I am not really upset about this. I am praying that I do not need to go through with this surgery at this point.
We shall see!