Friday, March 11, 2011
What I found out today....
So since I had not received a letter from my possibly future school for my ADN program so I called today to find out that I was not one of the first picks for this program. I do feel a little disappointed in that but I know that I was planning to apply again in the Spring if I did not get in. Everything happens for a reason and maybe it is just not the right time for me to start the program. As much as I would want it to be, God said that it is just not the time for me yet :(
They say that they will contact me if one of the first set of people decline or fail to complete the packet details that they will start on their back up waiting list, but I will not get my hopes up for this list.
My plan is to possibly either take the summer off and take some classes in Fall to "keep busy". Or suck it up and take some summer classes. I am also thinking about retaking one clinical math class to get a better grade.. and also retaking my entrance exam test (the NLN'S) to get a better score to get more of a higher score on my rubric. I pray that all things are happening for the good.
My mother is talking about moving away come this fall to winter of 2011 and I really wanted to start clinical so that I would be half way there by the time she was moving. Now I have to wait it out and do this on my own. It is scary. I have never been really far from my mom before other than one state away. She is talking about moving to Florida.. I want to be happy for her and I am.. I want her to be as stress free as possible so I will not let her know that I wish she would stay. I do not want her to feel obligated to stay here. I am scared to be alone. Although I am married I am my mothers eldest daughter and I am scared not to have my mommy close enough for those "just in case" moments.
So as I always do ask of whoever reads.. just please keep me in prayer as I will do for you. I know God will lead my steps and keep me within his reach.
I am thankful for being of sound mind and my health is increasing.. I am thankful that I have a healthy family and God provides for us all. So this is by far a big problem or issue but its still good to know that God has my back on all things. He knows my heart and knows what I want. I want to work for children in either a NICU or PICU. God loves the children and I would love to nurse them back to health as He would. So I know that He will bless me I just pray that it works out to praise and glorify Him in the end.
I will just stick with my "plan" and stay encouraged! :)