My motivation//Book I have read lately

Hi all! :)
For many people their reason for loosing weight is family, health, children to be happier within themselves. And all of these reasons are wonderful! They are also some of the reasons why I am loosing weight but my primary focus while I am on that treadmill is having my clothes falling off of me.. The feeling of having loose clothes blows my mind and keeps me encouraged to jog those last 5-7 minutes out on my treadmill.
Also with me being back at work I do like the "rush" I get from taking the green tea supplements. I have a desk job and it can get very busy so I like the fact of burning fat when I eat my meals at my desk :) Its like me drinking coffee and feeling that "coffee high" (giggle) :)

I wanted to share a book with all my friends who follow me with my blog. It is called "Heaven is For Real" This book is awesome! Here is what it looks like:


Here is the product description per Amazon:

"A young boy emerges from life-saving surgery with remarkable stories of his visit to heaven.

Heaven Is for Real is the true story of the four-year old son of a small town Nebraska pastor who during emergency surgery slips from consciousness and enters heaven. He survives and begins talking about being able to look down and see the doctor operating and his dad praying in the waiting room. The family didn't know what to believe but soon the evidence was clear.

Colton said he met his miscarried sister, whom no one had told him about, and his great grandfather who died 30 years before Colton was born, then shared impossible-to-know details about each. He describes the horse that only Jesus could ride, about how "reaaally big" God and his chair are, and how the Holy Spirit "shoots down power" from heaven to help us.

Told by the father, but often in Colton's own words, the disarmingly simple message is heaven is a real place, Jesus really loves children, and be ready, there is a coming last battle."

What I found out today....

So since I had not received a letter from my possibly future school for my ADN program so I called today to find out that I was not one of the first picks for this program. I do feel a little disappointed in that but I know that I was planning to apply again in the Spring if I did not get in. Everything happens for a reason and maybe it is just not the right time for me to start the program. As much as I would want it to be, God said that it is just not the time for me yet :(

They say that they will contact me if one of the first set of people decline or fail to complete the packet details that they will start on their back up waiting list, but I will not get my hopes up for this list.

My plan is to possibly either take the summer off and take some classes in Fall to "keep busy". Or suck it up and take some summer classes. I am also thinking about retaking one clinical math class to get a better grade.. and also retaking my entrance exam test (the NLN'S) to get a better score to get more of a higher score on my rubric. I pray that all things are happening for the good.

My mother is talking about moving away come this fall to winter of 2011 and I really wanted to start clinical so that I would be half way there by the time she was moving. Now I have to wait it out and do this on my own. It is scary. I have never been really far from my mom before other than one state away. She is talking about moving to Florida.. I want to be happy for her and I am.. I want her to be as stress free as possible so I will not let her know that I wish she would stay. I do not want her to feel obligated to stay here. I am scared to be alone. Although I am married I am my mothers eldest daughter and I am scared not to have my mommy close enough for those "just in case" moments.

So as I always do ask of whoever reads.. just please keep me in prayer as I will do for you. I know God will lead my steps and keep me within his reach.
I am thankful for being of sound mind and my health is increasing.. I am thankful that I have a healthy family and God provides for us all. So this is by far a big problem or issue but its still good to know that God has my back on all things. He knows my heart and knows what I want. I want to work for children in either a NICU or PICU. God loves the children and I would love to nurse them back to health as He would. So I know that He will bless me I just pray that it works out to praise and glorify Him in the end.

I will just stick with my "plan" and stay encouraged! :)

237.2!!

So I weighed myself first thing in the morning and this is what my scale had me at. I am happy but I feel that I could of done better.. but yes, we are still learning not to beat myself up over this! So I am content in knowing that I will not be bigger than this weight and I am keeping true to my promise and not increasing my number! But only decreasing!!! My small goal of 225 will possibly be here withing the next month and a half. So what I will do is continue to focus on exercising and eating right and not getting on the scale every week. I will probobly do a weigh in, in like 3-4 weeks that way it will please my psych to see the scale drop significantly. My ultimate goal is to be in onederland by my 30th birthday in September and I totally believe that this is attainable if I stay focussed on myself and put God first so that he can allow to give me the strength for me to continue.
Thank you LORD!!!
p.s. I missed my 3rd nutrition class today. It really means that I will have another month tacked on to my 6 month process..So I am not really upset about this. I am praying that I do not need to go through with this surgery at this point.
We shall see!

Today...

Welp! It has been a while since I have blogged.. A lot going on with getting ready to go back to work tomorrow from maternity leave. Not ready at all to return but I got to get back my 100% pay since my job only pays 50% :( . I am also happy to say that I have stayed away from a scale since my last post up until tonight.. errr!!! lol! I just HAD to figure out what I am loosing at this point. I have had days where me and hubby have at at fast food restaurants and I am getting better at not feeling guilty for what I am eating and also have made a lot of wiser decisions when we go out. I had somewhat of a chocolate day today and ate some unhealthy treats! lol! but its all good... just portion, portion, portion! That is what I keep telling myself. Well with that said and the junk that I ate today and this past weekend, with my 30 min. treadmill workout at least 6 days a week and eating better I am happy to announce that I am indeed in the 230's!!! YAY!! GOODBYE 240's for GOOD AND FOR EVER!!!! I am not sure accurately where I am in the 230's, I will weigh myself again in the morning and report in my next post. I just saws 23(something) and got excited.

As far as my JM30DS ... I kind of stopped after day 2 of the last 10 days.. I think it did its purpose in jump starting my endurance and helping with some quick results in my muscles. I plan to do it again possibly when I get down some more or get bored with the treadmill.
I thank God for my motivation and I am excited!!
Tomorrow I do go back to work and its also a day for my nutrition class but I think I am going to pass on the nutrition class just because I have to get in the habit of getting the kids to daycare prior to work and I do not want to tire myself out too much. I shall see how it goes. I did promise myself if I get down to 225 by 3/25 I will cancel my pulmonologist appt and possibly stop pursuing the LapBand surgery but right now even if I do reach that goal I may just keep it.. it wont hurt to see a pulminologist.. right?! lol!

Oh yeah and I recently purchased the book "Eat this, not that" I keep it in the car with me when me and hubby go out to eat.. Its a book that breaks down some of the best and worst fast/restaurant foods out there.. Including calories, fat grams, and sodium.. Its an awesome book. I consult it most of the times before hubby stops somewhere or talks about eating out esp if I can not check the nutrition guide online prior to going out.

Well Im about to go to bed! Good night everyone! :)
Stay Blessed!

P.S. still waiting to hear about a clinical seat for my RN program.. please keep me in prayer.. I need this in more ways than one! Thank you again!! :)