Florida bound tomorrow!!

Yes!!! I can not wait!!!! :) All smiles over here!! WOOT WOOT!!!!!
PART 1 OF BDAY CELEBRATION!!! HAPPY 30TH TO ME!!!!!!!! :D

221.6!! Happy Hump Day!!

So not quite out of the 220's but I will take it!!! May be at tomorrows weigh in! :)
I am soo excited.. Decided that I would like to make my goal no later than my birthday in September.. That would be of 165lbs! Once I hit 200lbs.. (which is like 20lbs away) This goal will not seem so far reached! Only 35lbs from that! YAY!!!! IM super amped to get there! My Short Term goal would be around 180/175lbs which I plan to be if not less by this summer! CANT WAIT!!!! ;) Cant wait until I am maintaining!

ME and Hubby are doing our budget and by the power of God this thing WILL workout! lol! This is a serious matter because we need to manage our spending and get our credit in check. We plan to pay off some creditor this year (well a majority of them) and try to get our credit rating up at least an additional 150 pts each! I think we can do it with no problem since we have a plan. So I am excited about this process. We want to buy a house in the next year to year and a half!

Today's not a good day

So far today it is not going very well for me.. Dealing a little with PPD and its just not a fun thing.. I also binged somewhat today because of my feelings. I am overall not in a good mood.
I went to the doc for my 6 week post partum check up and stepped on their scale and it said 249!!!!!!! WHAT!!! I mean I know that my scale could be off from theirs but not by that much! Then I find out that my BP was 140/something... I blocked out the bottom number when I heard 140.. Then I want to extend my maternity leave which the office won't have a problem filling out the paperwork for but my stupid job's insurance people for disablitly may give me a hard time with allowing it to be paid which means that I will be returning to work sooner than I would want to.. I really do not think that I am mentally prepared to go back to work yet personally.. So I will pray about it and trust in God to work this out..
So I came home and weighed myself and my scale at home said 246! Now, I know that I said that I would wait until next week to weigh myself but because of the number today I just HAD to try at home. Now this is very disappointing and it makes me feel horrible.. This scale is so mind controlling! I hate it.. that is whay I wanted to stay away from it for a week or two.
It is wierd because I have noticed that I am loosing in all areas of my body.. serious inches.. ( I have not measured before nor now but I can feel and see it in my clothes) So I guess this can count as a NSV! :)

Yesterday the hubby wanted to eat out at JAke's Burgers.. So since I knew this ahead of time I ate a lower calorie amount of food for breakfast and lunch and watched my snacking and made sure I worked out so that I wouldn't feel that guilty eating out. I got their Gardenburger sandwich and it was good.. I shared fries with the hubby and had water to drink. So I think that I did good.

hmmmm... sooo here is what I have ate so far today... I am not proud of this but I need to hold myself accountable for what I am doing...

Protein shake (1/2 banana, mixed berries)
Water (64 oz)
Fiber One Bar (90 calorie)
Sugar free fudge bar
6 Hershey Kisses (3 almond, 3 reg choc)
4 Girl Scout Thin Mint Cookies
Oatmeal with applesause
1/2 Glass of Red wine
Sushi (DYNAMITE ROLL-8 pieces of {Eel,asparagus, spicy tuna, tempura, special sauce}, SUMMER ROLL-6 pieces of {Fresh tuna, salmon, yellowtail, superwhite tuna and avocado, lettus, wrapped with soy paper})

It has a lot to do with emotional eating and I have to get that into control.. At some point I do tell myself to cut it out and stop it.. and then I stared to write this blog.

Other things include me still waiting on the letter from my school saying that I was admitted into the nursing program .. Im praying I get it.. rEally I want a seat really bad... but now I am getting scared .. I am going to stay as positive as I can be and try to avoid negative thoughts..

Off the topic but I am sitting here watching MTV.. Does anyone watch the series "I used to be fat"? I like watching them.. they are very motivational.. Makes me want to work out.
I may take a day off from working out today.. not sure as yet.. I am just not feeling it right now and the hubby wants us to go out tonight. We shall see...

Things I am going to do differently...

I am going to do a couple things different this time around and this will hopefully aide me in keeping off the weight in my long term efforts. The first is what I have been doing and keeping my blog open about what I am doing. The next is to take credit for any compliments that I receive and being truthful. In the past when I have lost weight I denied any compliments and would "act" as if I was not loosing when people would notice. In my mind if I would admit to the weight loss and take the compliment I would feel like my motivation would dwiddle down and I would not be motivated as much to loose the rest no matter how much it would be. Now I know it is mind over matter and I am going to talk and accept my compliments.. I have earned them with the hard work that I am putting into my workouts!
NOw, I know that I will not always be noticed by my weight loss and can not expect to be acknowleged every time I see someone but I can graciously accept their words and take it for my own.

I am also thinking about making some short term/long term weight loss goals as I have seen from other fellow blogger friends. I think my first short term goal is to reach 225lbs. Then I would like to have my next STG set to 199lbs. Why 199? because it is not in the 200's!! lol!!! I can not wait until ONEderland!!! I know I will be there before I know it! Im so excited to get there!!!
My next goal after that will be 180 and then 160. ONce I reach 160lbs. I will feel comfident enough to possibly maintain but I will stay at 155lbs for now just in case ;)

I will be tracking some foods that I eat. I am horrible of keeping a food journal/diary but I figured I could make a list of some things that I eat for breakfast, lunch , dinner and snacks.. This way I can refer back when I am hungry if I can not figure out what to eat if I want something healthy instead of binging on something I will regret.

I have to get over regretting on eating out when I rarely do. I just have to make wiser decisions when I do. I still have to live my life, and I have to learn that I can not be that hard on myself. I can be so hard on myself that I do not feel like working out because of poor food decisions because I figure, "What is the point!" Most people would probobly have this as a motivation to work out or work out even harder but I am backwards with this! lol!

I am still keeping my other goals in mind of when I loose 25lbs, 50lbs etc in mind on what I will do to treat myself.. My 25lbs goal will be up soon.. possibly within the next month or so.. and that will be my LV purse!!! I am also currently looking into getting a Michael Khors one though.. I live by one of the outlets and I have been wanting one of these for a while now but just didn't get one.. I always choose Coach..So this may be my -25lbs weight loss present to myself! I can not wait to get to 50lb loss!! I will be going to the HErshey SPa!!! YEAH!!!!!!! I LOOOVEE Chocolate! and to be drizzled in it will be AmAzInG!!!!

What I have been eating/doing/workouts

This is really random and in no particular order but, As far as eating I have been doing EAS protein shakes in the morning or mid afternoon After my workouts.. I have been eating frozen yellow grapes(YUMM!!) I have been eating peanut butter on wheat bread (1 piece) when I have a hunger pain and its not time for a meal yet. For dinner I always have protein.. mostly chicken but I have had pork and beaf.. I am definately watching my portions and have cut junk food out completely. I have been drinking or at least getting close to my 64oz of water daily. I take flinstones multi-vitamins... lol! hey! they do the job! :)
For a sweet tooth snack, I have been having the 100 calorie pack choc fudge covered pretzles! Mmmmmm!!! chocolate is my weakness!! ;)

For workouts.. we have on demand which is featured on our local cable box. I do the exercises on there that are for free.. WHICH ARE A LOT! lol! I have a lot to choose from. I also have the WII and WII Fit board which I fit in from time to time.. I plan to work out every day for at least 30 min. but I have put in one rest day so far.. but my aim is to go everyday unless I am majorly sore. That way I know that my body is going to get a workout for the majority of the week. After I get bored with the TV workouts then I may join my local gym again.. but the free'r the better! (Free'r is sooo not a word, but just came to mind then) haha!!

As far as what I am doing right now, I am patiently waiting to hear a reply from my school to see if I got a clinical seat for their ADN program this fall.. I am PRAYING I get in! That would be AWESOME!!! Please pray for me.. This would be a wonderful blessing!!!

I would like to get my youtube page going with videos.. probobly about my weight loss mixed in beauty (makeup and hair)... IDK as yet.. but I would like to start it this month..
I went to Sallys yesterday and stocked up on some China Glaze and other nail polishes..


I also got some items at the mall from the body shop...
Then we went to sephora and got my fragrance "Taj Sunset" my Escada.. Smells eatibly delish! :)

As far as a more immediate doing.. me and hubby are going to a superbowl party tonight.. We are rooting for the steelers!!! YAY!!!
I am also going to be going out to a birthday party next weekend for one of my girlfriends from high schools 30th birthday party.. This will be one of the first party/clubs I will be going to in YEARS!!! So I would like to look nice.. I have a couple options to go with.. its a masquerade party.. So I have to get a mask too!! How fun!!! I have to take pics! :)
Now just to think of some shoes...

Can not wait until I can do my weigh in on Tuesday.. hmmmmmm or maybe I can.. Im scared about not loosing or staying to same.. we shall see..

Can't wait!!

I am soo excited about having my baby, the countdown is on!!! 13 more days! I am very impatient right now but I am praying he comes soon with all the uncomfortableness that I am indwelling. No sleeping and extremem pressure and pain.. not to mention the constant bathroom runs in the middle of the night and bumping in to the walls! haha!!! Boy o Boy I can not wait!!
I just keep praying for a healthy and happy baby boy with all his fingers and toes and just again healthy! I thank God right now for his safe delivery into this world! :D

I am also excited because after he comes I can really focus on getting my lapband surgery.. Its been sooo fun so far browsing and following some other fellow bloggers and their own experience, it gives me motivation and makes me excited about getting it done. As I mentioned in my goals I am aiming to have it done hopefully by August/September of this year if all goes well (which I pray it does)!
I have set up my weight tracker to start at 255lbs. as that was the weight I was at prior to getting pregnant with my son. I am putting it allll out there! I have never told anyone exactly what I weighed except for my husband (not even my mom) so I guess that this is my first step!

Later I will blog about my weight experience throughout the years so far. Maybe after delivary since this will be my main focus. I am going to have 6 months to talk about it because my insurance which is BCBS requires me to be on a structured diet program for 6 months prior to surgery. lol! I wish it wasn't because I would schedule it literally right after the birth of my baby boy!! haha!!!
I can not wait to look, feel, and be healthy!!!!

I think I will blog today :-)

First Off this pregnancy has flown by but now I am sooo ready for my little blessing of a baby boy to come now! :) His due date is January 22nd 2011 but I am hoping that he can make an early debut in January!!! Its just moving too slow for me now and its driving me nutz!!! haha!!
I am thankful that he is healthy and we are doing good .. just keeping everything in God's hands still and praying everything will be just fine.
I went shopping yesterday (online) and bought some cute outfits for him at Carters and Old Navy, I am hoping that they fit him!!

Other news.. sad news.. my great grandmother passed away last month. Me and some members of my family traveled to Jamaica for her burial. She lived to be 115 years old! My God bless her soul and keep her. I got to see family members that I have not seen in a while and while there were some that made me want to get back to the states ASAP it was still good to be there for that time.

I had my baby shower too!!! YAY!!! Not a big turn out as it was when I had the one for Moriah but apparently there is a stomach bug going around and there were just the regular no shows that come along with any function.. All together I was thankful for the people who could make it and very thankful for their gifts!

This pregnancy has gown so fast that I havent even had time to do my maternity pictures as yet! UGH!!! I think we are going to do them after Christmas if the LO is still inside ;) One thing we are not doing with this pregnancy is the innerview ultrasound that we did with Moriah.. just because the money is tight and its really not going to be much different. I will spoil him when he gets here! :)

Other than that I guess we are just getting ready for Christmas and enjoying the cold weather! I cant wait until babygirl opens her presents! YAY!!!

WHO IS A NURSE!!??? I AM, I AM!!

So I officially received my notice that I am a Licensed Practical Nurse!!!! YAY!!! Of course my journey is not complete but at least I have finished this step and am considered a nurse now!! YAY ME!!!

Soooo I took my NCLEX PN boards today!!!!

I am soo nervous.. here we dont really find out our results for technically a month but I am anxiously checking my status on my boards website to see if my license has been added..

The minimum of questions you take are 85 and the max is around 245.. BUT I STOPPED AT 85!!! I felt okay on some questions but on others I had no clue!???? ERR!!! Sooo Im still praying that I am okay and that I passed.
I did the "Pearson Trick" and got the "good message". So I am just waiting.. ugh this wait is killing me! :D
I pray I dont have to take it again! PLEASE Lord, please let me pass so that I can move on to my ADN!!!!! Thank you! :D

Thankful and Blessed!

I am extremely thankful and blessed in knowing that I have a healthy family!
There are sooo many things in my life that I am thankful for! and I feel so blessed that I have it in my life. Im blessed to have a marriage that I have always wanted, even though times can be hard, this is what makes up our marriage and I would not trade it for the world. I am very blessed to have a beautiful daughter and to have the previlage of having our healthy little baby boy coming very soon too!

I am thankful for my job and my health.. which is going to improve..
I am thankful for a home and my husbands job. I am extremely thankful for the health of my children.

I am just extremely blessed and wanted to let everyone know! :D

Randomness

I guess the time is coming for me to start thinking about making a baby registry. I cant beleive that Im due in about 4 months!! OMG!! I can hardly wait!! I am happy that its a boy and he IS and WILL BE HEALTHY!!! :D Thanks God!!!
I am planning to do one this weekend if plans work out.. This last weekend was not that good plan wise.. Me and my dd were going to go to the mall to do some shopping and on our way there our car had a malfunction! EEKK! So I immediatly called my DH (who was working extra hours for work and was currently out of state) to figure out what to do.. Thankfully my DH is awesome at directions and sense of direction because when I told him where I was he told me exactly where the nearest Pep Boys was to inspect my car..

Well to sum it up. Me and my DD (and finally DH when he was able to get off of work) spent about 4 hours in the Pep Boys to find out that my axel had broken!???!!??? HUH!!! WHAT!!!! HOW??!!!
I had NO CLUE where to begin in a conversation about that, I just wanted it fixed. So we were told they would start fixing it. After about another 45 min. we were told that in the process of the axel breaking off a piece of the transmission went along with it! EEEEEEEKKKK!!! WHAT!!! At this point we were told to just bring the car to Aamco (sp?) because they can not do anything with a transmission problem..

Sooooo of course at this point Aamco was closed. So I just drove the car home with hubby in front of me. Beleive it or not, whatever they did actually allowed the car the drive better than it had been over the last year! LOL! We get a callback from Aamco, although they were closed, and someone listened to my husband about the problem and told us that this is common in the car that we have and if we hear the noise again to bring in the car. He says that there is nothing that broke off of the transmission its just a piece that our car takes and some places are not familiar and it would look like its broken but he knew exactly what we were talking about with our car.. THank goodness.. so we are holding out on bringing the car until we do hear it again!

On a side note: Ive been dealing with a lot lately and have been thinking.. but some people are so phony to me.. they are so phony that they make my stomach cringe.. its sad especially when they are family! UGH!! I just try to stay away as much as possible. Its just sickening to me!

Money... Where can I get some more!!!

Today I am frustrated.. Money issues are one of the issues on my mind.. I can never make enough money to get where I want to get. I am trying to budget my family's finances. I figured it would be easier with two incomes but I can openly admit that my DH is not good with finances... I am at the point where I need to get all of our money into one pot and I deal with everything.. The thing is all the previous times I have told him to let me do this he would not do it.. not saying he would reject the idea but he would listen and never actually do the work to allow me to start. But when(meaning him) hits a bottom point in the finances, now he wants to work with my idea.. GO FIGURE!!

Finances/money however you want to put it is one of the biggest financial strains on a marriage and can in most cases lead to divorce. Im not trying to let it go that far but its still hard to deal with when you want to do some things but virtually can not. I have sacraficed a lot and I budget my own money.. we have debt that we need to pay off so that we are able to buy our big brand new home that I want so badly :)

I just pray that we make it through all of this and pay our debt within the next couple of years.. Its not going to be easy but im willing to sacrafice..

Well.. there is a glimpse into my life.. maybe Im putting too much out there but HEY.. Its my BLOG!! and everyone is not perfect.. including me, so Im pretty sure there are others that are going through the same thing..

Time to Blog...

Why I havent been blogging much...
I am pregnant.. again!!!! :) I am about 5 months now (17 weeks) and I am ready for this little blessing to come in January. This pregnancy is totally different from the first and has its own pros and cons but Im keeping hope alive to have a wonderful end 2nd and 3rd trimester!!!
I find out if its a boy or girl (well hopefully, if the baby chooses to comply) on September 1st!! So Im a little excited about that too!

The Weather....
Right now I CANT STAND THIS SUMMER HEAT!!!! It is extremely too hot to do anything at all..and its not because I am pregnant but its just too unbearable.. I dont even want my toddler going out in this heat because its soo brutal! I cant wait until fall and winter!! I LOOOVVEEE the cold :)
Im a September baby so I guess thats why!

Update on Tresseme!
I have tried it and LOVE IT!!!!!! The smell of the poo and con are soo nice, and I can even deal with it with my pregnancy.. It made my hair feel really soft and it didnt feel stript at all. After the poo and con I applied Neutrogena Triple Moisture leave-in and some oil to seal and air dried.. My hair felt soooo soft.. well it feels sooo soft because I have been wearing my hair like this for the past 3 days now :)
Other hair news!
I am still waiting for my order from Bee Mine. I placed it on Saturday and via Fed Ex it should be here by this Saturday.. I cant wait to smell and try those products too! ( AND YES, I did say SMELL!) LOL!!!!

Fitness..
So for the first time really while I was home waiting to go to work (since I work in the evenings now) I was able to watch one of the old episode of the Kardashians. I must say that I am truly upset with myself for not getting into this series.. I LOVED IT!!! and LOVE Kim Kardashians body!!! Not saying that I will ever have a body like hers but I can honestly say that its a "type" that I like.
Everytime Im pregnant I get into this major fitness kick in the middle of the pregnancy.. prob because that is when Im actually starting to gain the weight... go figure.. but after this baby I want to be done.. I dont think I can go through a pregnancy again.. or maybe wait a really loooooooooooong time! :)

~Vacation~

My DH and I have booked a fabulous vacation getaway to JA after this semester of school and I cant wait!!!! 7 more weeks BAYYY BEEE!!! :D
We have to work on getting our passports in order but other than that everything is ready to go!

Right now I'm trying to stay focused so that I can graduate with no problems by passing my Exit exams... ( HESI) I'm soo nervous but I'm still trying to remain positive..
IS it weird that the Exit exam gets me more nervous than the actual boards right now????
I'm thinking its because the Exit exam is in like 3 WEEKS! EEEEEKKK!!! My heart is pounding just thinking about it!
Right now I'm preparing by just studying and getting into all my comprehension study books for more and more questions and reasoning's as to why and how... Its just very scary to me..
On top of all of this I have to make sure that I am getting everything done for school as far as passing all my courses! lol!
I will REALLY appreciate this vacay when I am done! REALLY!!!!!!
Please pray my strength and pray for my mind to be at ease so that the information will be retained so I will have success!!
Thank you soo much and may God be with you always!!!
xoxoxo!! :)

Its a Beautiful Day :) ... and I am soo tired! :(

Today was one of my clinical days at school.. Had to be at the hospital by 6:45 am, which means waking up at 5am and leaving my house by 5:45am.. Then I work every night until 10pm.. Needless to say I am BEAT! lol!! I am exhausted. I am used to this cycle but being that we had a week off for spring break and also the weather is getting nicer its really draining the energy out of me.. Then again I did start working out and that could be where some of my energy is being depleted from. I know it takes some energy from you when you just start but you start to gain energy shortly following.. (kinda like pregnancy! hehehe) I know the sun has good properties and is good for Vitamin D but it takes my energy out of me while I'm driving to work for the night.
I thank God for my job and my supervisor.. Been here for 2 happy years! :) And I am grateful that I have a sit down/computer job.
I am thankful because I was able to spend time with my daughter after clinical today too.. along with my mom and one of sisters. Working full-time and being in nursing school full-time it gives me and my DH limited of time to really be with our baby girl. It really doesn't seem that bad though because we have a wonderful support system and the time that we do spend with our baby girl we cherish every Milli-second of it! :D

Party Time!!!!!...........

I am (in my spare time) trying to get my daughters 1st birthday party planned and also helping to plan my MIL (Mother In Law's) 50th birthday party too.. I would Love to get into the PARTY PLANNING Business! I think that this is something that I will try to grow into my own "thing" on the side to make extra money... (hey, u have to have some kind of hussle to make it in this world :/ ... LOL)
So I'm going to start my portfolio and getting organized.. I know it will be a success when I put my mind to it!!

I LOVE parties.. For my daughter I'm thinking a Lilo & Stitch theme.. but I am finding it really hard to find Lilo & Stitch paraphernalia or just decorations in general.. I guess its not the "it thing" right now :( So I'm forced to watch a bunch of items on EBay until I can find something..
My backup theme is Dora, and I have really creative ideas for this too but Im still not fully stoked on the Dora theme.. at least not for her 1st Bday :)
Her Bday is in June and Im sooo excited!!! :) We may be doing this in our backyard.. Im just afraid of the weather.. ugh!!! Ill need to check the 2010 farmers almanac for her tentative date :) My budget for her bday will be max $1000.00. This should include all vendors, decorations, foods, etc... I WILL make this work! haha!!!

For my MIL, she has told me her color scheme that she wants, which is black, silver, and white.. We may incorporate some red in that... She doesn't want the gold... which is the traditional color for the 50th year,.... but whatev!
I know for her I want to do balloons for the centerpieces.. I have to find a reasonable venue.. possibly a local fire hall that rents somewhere between $400-$600 for 5 hours. We have some idea on who the DJ will be who will charge very little or maybe nothing at all.. The catering so far I am showing will be around $600.00 for 50 people which is a REALLY GOOD DEAL! So now we have to get the right amount of people that are going to be there (guest list) and other decor and odds and ends in place.. This event will not be until October... but I like to get everything in order now so it wont be a rushed job.. :D I would say a fair amount to budget for this event will be $1500-$2000.

Some pix :)

I decided to use my new camera my DH bought me for Christmas today and take some pics of myself! I only wore eyeshadow and light lipstick in the top pics.. The only pic I had on my full makeup is the last where Im in my car.. I think they came out really nice :)**OH YEAH... Puhh leeez excuse the eyebrows! hehehe! Enjoy!!! lol!

**The 2nd to the last one is a shot of my hair length.. didnt have a ruler but just so that I can always come back and view for updates! :*)
Tell me what you think???????? :0)

Weekend Recap

Sat... worked and then got off and went to the mall for some much needed shopping and catching up. Wen to Sephora (FINALLY) and got my Smashbox lip enhancing gloss- true color in Pixel :) Im soooo loving it right now.. the shade looks sooo good on me being that it is the winter time... cant really wear it in the summer time though..Here is a pic of it:

I also made a well overdue stop at MAC and purchased my concealer, mineral powder, and liquid foundation for a grand total of $67.50. I may be returning the liquid foundation because I know that I can get a better deal just using L'OREAL's true match..for around $12.00 instead of the $27.00 :/

Made other stops which included the Gap, and bath and body works which were having nice sales! So I was pretty happy with my purchases.. Overall I spent approx $150 and got 2 shirts, 1 skirt, lip gloss, concealer, foundation, and mineral powder, 2 body splash's, 1 body lotion, shea butter infused socks.

Sooooooo on to the next!!!

Hoping to make 2011 the year I finally get to see the ball drop in NYC!! Im sooo close but yet so far away for this and I promise myself every year that I will be going one year after the next I just never get on the ball with it (no pun intended) lol!!!! *im such a dork* lol!!! I just cant wait.. I really hope to buy the tickets for a hotel in NYC by this weekend.. Hotel rooms are already starting to get booked!! YAWWWZAAA!!!!!! ;)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New Year and a new beginning. I plan to stay updated on my blog and able to post as frequently as I would like. Being in nursing school and having a small child and husband is not as easy as I thought it would be to update my blog.. As you can see my last entry was in September, basically around the time school started! tee hehe!!!! ;)

Anywhoo.. a new year, right?!?! so I'm going to try to start off good this year! YAY!! :) I've changed up since its a new year, deleted a blog that was really unnecessary because I can just use the tag system. I changed my background and basically changing the concept of my blog to be just about simply ME!**

I am planning a lot of things this year.. (oh how I missed blogging) okay, okay... back on track!! haha!!

1st- Graduate from my LPN program, then get right back in to complete my RN
** my school is a 1+1 program where you can get your LPN so you can work while finishing your RN**

2nd- TRAVELING!!!!!!!!!! There are MANY MANY places on my agenda, I just have to figure out financially what I can do and how to get there.. but I'm definitely not going to let anything hold me back from this!!!

3rd- Get credit back under control and increase money flow in our household!** I am VERY excited about this. We should be able to still knock out some debt while still being able to travel! :)

4th- Plan my baby girls 1st BDAY PARTY!!!!
*I'm starting to plan now because Ill be in my nursing clinical until May, I don't want it to creep up on me and I have no idea what I'm going to do :)